MY DIARY

2010-07-09T12:22:00.000-07:00

No more you in my life since we were separated. I'm gonna miss you. Everything about you. Everything that we have shared before. Now, i just have to keep all those memories. You'll never know why did i do this to you. And you'll never understand why. Because you're just a fifteen-year-old boy which is doesn't know much about love and life. I love you, yes i do. And i know you love me too. But you never prove it to me. Until now. And sorry if I'd hurt you. I know I'd made lot of mistakes to you. I am sorry, i really am.

Naim Shamri

2010-07-09T12:15:00.000-07:00

Maybe you’ll have second chance, but it will never be as great as the first one.

i miss you

2010-07-09T12:11:00.000-07:00

How many times did I feel asleep happily, imagining you were laying next to me? God knows. God knows how much I loved you, how much you meant to me, I thought you knew it too, I was wrong totally. Oh, do you still remember those sweet ice creams? I now understand why they tasted so good, now that you are gone, its taste was just eating it with you, it’s obvious. I still feel that warm feeling on my chest, left from the times you put your head. I still hear your hair’s smell, that natural perfume of yours. And baby hear this, I miss you telling me that we will get through this, I miss you saying you love me, I miss your sweet words you use to tell me not so long ago, I miss you being mine, I miss you being able to make me laugh. I miss your laughter, I miss your love, but most of all I miss you.

2010-07-09T11:45:00.000-07:00

Id like to meet someone who wouldn’t give up on me. Someone who would always be there no matter what. Someone who I could tell all of my secrets to, and they would trust me enough and tell me theirs. Someone who wouldn’t care what I wear, or how I have my hair done. Someone who would call me every night just to hear my voice. Someone who would know me well enough to tell when I’m mad, sad or confused. Someone who wouldn’t like me just for the looks, but for my heart and my personality. Someone who wouldn’t just love, but who would be addicted to me. Someone who would never leave me clueless or alone. Someone who would always keep their promises and mean what they say. Someone who would look out for me. Someone who would never leave me broken. Someone who would be faithful to me. Someone who would be the one for me, and I’d be the one for them. Someone who would be my Romeo and I’ll be their Juliet.

*Luqman Naim, I wish you'll be mine

FATIN NUR SYUHADAH

2010-06-19T03:12:00.000-07:00

kakak, firstly adik mintak maaf kalau adik ada buat kakak kecil hati. adik cuma nak kakak tahu, kakak dah salah anggap. that words adik tak tuju kan dekat kakak. tapi untuk my second sister, Nur Syamira. please do understand. tak kan lah adik tergamak cakap macam tu dekat kakak kan? kakak tak faham isi hati adik. adik sayang kakak macam mana adik sayang diri adik sendiri. memang adik tak tunjukkan. hati adik tak pernah tutup untuk kakak, syuha, aniq. adik sayang korang macam adik beradik kandung. susah kakak nak faham isi hati orang. kakak jangan tinggalkan adik. jangan tinggalkan adik.. adik menangis tulis benda ni. adik tak pernah bahagia bila hidup kat dunia ni. kadang kadang sakit adik terubat bila kakak selalu ada dengan adik. adik sayang kakak. honestly air mata tak berhenti mengalir. setitis air mata yang jatuh ibarat seribu kasih yang adik curahkan untuk orang yang dipanggil kakak...

baa baa black sheep

2010-06-16T00:38:00.000-07:00

Hey yaa :) jana dah malas nak update blog. dia kata dia nak belajar cari boyfriend for PMR. hahaha. dia kan tak ada boyfriend, so nak pi gali lubang juboq kerbau. nak cari POPO sampai dapat. hahahaha. kan popo kan?

WHAT THE FUCK!

2010-06-15T23:55:00.000-07:00

ohh my godness beybeh. dia lesbian! euwwwwwwwwwwwww suck! hahahaha. aku memang tak heran, tapi cam terkejut nak mati. -________- muka dia boleh tak tahan lah, good looking. hahahhahhahaha. ehh dah dah :/

Yes for you, EX

2010-06-13T20:17:00.000-07:00

Near to you, I am healing but its taking so long. Cause thought he's gone and you are wonderful its hard to move on. Yet, I'm better near to you. *a song for him and he doesnt know that he is the one

Why?

2010-06-13T20:13:00.000-07:00

Why cry? Not a single text or a single call from you. I'm stronger girl now and its all because of you. Cause I cant wait on you no more! I made it here without you so tell me why should I cry?

with Anne Kamarulzaman ♥

2010-06-13T20:04:00.000-07:00

*best gila dohhhhhhhhhhh. Hahahahha. Kak Anne cakap muka aku macam hantu -_____-

Mamat ni duk salahkan aku pasal BUFFALO ni

2010-06-12T03:01:00.000-07:00

malas nak taip. kalau nak tahu cerita, tanya aku deyh? tangan dah melebur asyik duk update blog. HAHAHAHAHAHA

STUPID BUFFALO :)

2010-06-12T02:42:00.000-07:00

B to the A to the B to the I

12 June, 01:30 am

2010-06-10T20:56:00.000-07:00

Malam tadi otp dengan Kak Anne. Best gila bahhhhhhhhhh :D kakak cerita pasal kawan kawan dia, crush crush dia, abang abang dia. Panas telinga dengar kisah remaja purba dia. Hahaha. Kita cerita pasal orang orang KENAMAAN TERHINA gitu. Hahahah. Then on hold jap sebab kakak punya crush call. Aww ;) Lama jugak dorang gayut -.- Pastu kakak call balik. Tiba tiba je dia gelak. Angin kus kus nya sampai :O bebel sana sini semua, tiba tiba tut tut tuttttttttttttttttt hahaha. Supersavers dah tidur. Kakak text cakap camni "alah jana , ss dah habis . esok kakak call lagi k". Then tak apa lah kan :) kakak suruh tidur lepastu si babi ni text cari pasal dengan aku. BUFFALO :) aku tengah happy happy terus panas. Aku text kakak. bagitahu dia apa si babi ni cakap, then kakak cakap jangan layan. aku pun buat bodoh. aku forward semua text text dia kat kakak. kakak cakap apahal dia tu. aku pun tak tahu apa masalah buffalo ni sebenarnya -.-

I love you

2010-06-10T20:51:00.000-07:00

Anne Kamarulzaman ♥

♥ Doublecheeseburger Anne Kamarulzaman

2010-06-10T20:37:00.000-07:00

Me : mummy. hahah Kak Anne : omg omg hahah Me : kelakar? Kak Anne : kerek adik aku ni. dah makan? Me : hahaha. saje jelah kak. dah! makan DOUBLECHEESEBURGER favourite kakak :) aww. adik nak offline. nak pergi tuition. take care, iloveyou Kak Anne : Adik jaga diri pergi tuition , jgn gatal gatal okay budak kecik haha byebye iloveyou *mummy saya nasihatkan supaya saya tidak mengatal semasa berada di dalam kelas tusyen. mummy anda bagaimana?

I'm changed

2010-06-10T20:20:00.000-07:00

Hello fucking people. What are you looking for? Hey, I'm CHANGED. Ramai tak suka perangai aku. Yeah perangai macam sial. Sampai ada orang cakap aku ni HIPOKRIT. Wth man! Aku tak kisah lah korang nak cakap apa. Tapi bagi aku, orang yang dulunya jahat ada adabnya nak berubah. As what Yayaa said, tak makan saman apa orang cakap. Yeah memang. Manusia ni kadang kadang tak lari daripada buat kesilapan termasuk siapa yang cakap aku hipokrit tu. Wow aku down gila kot sekarang. Yayaa, Ady, Izzati, Iylia yang bagi aku semangat. Kalau boleh patah balik masa, rasa macam nak hentam je muka babi babi sekalian tu. Ergh!

Suka gila :)

2010-06-10T20:04:00.000-07:00

Waving flag by K'naan When I get older, I will be stronger They’ll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag When I get older, I will be stronger They’ll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag And then it goes back, and then it goes back And then it goes back Born to a throne, stronger than Rome But Violent prone, poor people zone But it’s my home, all I have known Where I got grown, streets we would roam But out of the darkness, I came the farthest Among the hardest survival Learn from these streets, it can be bleak Except no defeat, surrender retreat So we struggling, fighting to eat and We wondering when we’ll be free So we patiently wait, for that fateful day It’s not far away, so for now we say When I get older, I will be stronger They’ll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag And then it goes back, and then it goes back And then it goes back So many wars, settling scores Bringing us promises, leaving us poor I heard them say, love is the way Love is the answer, that’s what they say, But look how they treat us, make us believers We fight their battles, then they deceive us Try to control us, they couldn’t hold us Cause we just move forward like Buffalo Soldiers But we struggling, fighting to eat And we wondering, when we’ll be free So we patiently wait, for that faithful day It’s not far away, but for now we say When I get older, I will be stronger They’ll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag And then it goes back, and then it goes back And then it goes back

*08:18 p.m. 10 June 2010

2010-06-10T19:45:00.000-07:00

Scandle?

Nak mampus budak ni!

2010-06-09T22:18:00.000-07:00

ehh nak mampus eh? pergi lah sana cepat. duduk jejauh :/

Abe dah balik mrsm :'(

2010-06-09T19:36:00.000-07:00

Semalam dia cakap harini nak balik mrsm. shit! dah ah tak dapat keluar. kalau tak boleh jumpa Abe Gedebe aku ni haa. mesti rindu kau ejek aku kan nanti :'( tapi tak apa pun. kau duk mrsm, aku call kau jugak en hari hari? dengar kau punya ceramah. hahahah. btw, sorry doh pasal malam tadi.

5 kali?

2010-06-09T19:30:00.000-07:00

Aku tak tahu apa masalah perut aku malam tadi. Sakit bagai nak mati haa. Sampi 5 kali masuk toilet. Mama duk pelik pahal anak dia ni. Hahhaha. Dah lah sakit perut, mama ajak teman pergi kedai beli lauk. terpaksa lah teman. sampai dekat tengah tengah jalan, ada mamat handsome muka macam brad pitt kenyit mata dekat aku. OMG! aww aww :) nasib baik mama tak nampak. kalau dia nampak, benda yang dia akan cakap "bukan main lagi kau" hahaha. sakit perut aku terus hilang lah nampak klon brad pitt. hahaha

Bengang sial dengan Abe -.-

2010-06-09T18:46:00.000-07:00

Semalam otp dengan Abe. Sumpah bengang gila dohh. Tengah cakap dengan dia, jap lagi budak budak di duk kitai kitai aku. Aku bengang terus letak phone. Abe call dua kali aku buat bodoh. Sakit hati bagai nak mati.

Me : you deserves better than useless around you.

Abe : you means?

Me : here now I was texting with the stranger. and if you say that you dont know what did I means pun, it doesnt matter because thats not what you want kan. it somes naturally. you just have to be positive and think what you have done is good enough for yourself. fight for your right. tak makan saman apa orang cakap.

Abe : aku nak buat buat tak faham. kenapa kau ni? rileks lah weh. aku gurau je lah. sorry lah. takkan kau tak faham aku kan.

Me : why is so hard to live in this planet? it doesnt matter lah abe. as what you said that you just kidding, Im not take it that youre kidding. well, Im your friend. but nowest, I cant stand the way you make me hurts with your bullying.

Abe : weh, kau buat touching apa. aku tak reti nak pujuk orang ni. angkat sat phone tu. engkau duk buat kami bengan pulak.

Me : proud to be yourself ok? Im tired of arguing with Hadirull Amin.

Abe : sukahati kau lah. nak kawan tak ni? aku dah malas nak berbahasa inggeris dengan kau. Last question, nak kawan ke tak?

Me : kita memang kawan pun kan.

Abe : haha, tahu pun kau. nak touching pulak. bukan senang nak pujuk perempuan. Youre the second one. appreciate sikit.

Me : aku bukan touching. tapi sakit hati dengan perangai korang. the second one? who's the one on bottom? I appreciate what you've done shitter.

Abe : sakit hati sebab apa? luahkan sikit

Me : shitter, damnitt, bullshitt.

Abe : weh, tapis sikit.

Me : terasa pulak

Abe : dah tu, kau cakap dekat siapa?

Me : stranger :) aku nak get close dengan koramg sebab aku dah hilang ramai kawan. tapi korang macam endah tak endah. aku tak mintak apa apa daripada seorang daripada korang (apa ayat aku ni -.-) kalau korang cam tak selesa, let it out. aku tak suka belakang belakang.

Abe : nak lepak datang sini. kami nak datang sana susah.

Me : aku lagi susah. masalah tak ada kena mengena dengan lepak

*then Abe tak reply. touching lah tu. haish -__- melepet nak pujuk dia

Nak macam ni dohh -__-

2010-06-09T01:38:00.000-07:00

Awww! Hahahah. Tengah berangan ni ^^

I miss you Ady

2010-06-09T00:33:00.000-07:00

18 September 2009 untill 16 January 2010, always in my mind.

Yeah Ady kita dah break :) tapi aku masih sayang lagi dekat kau. hahah. lepas break kita gaduh gila gila sampai kau naik menyampah dengan aku. hahaha. then abe, arep, pedon yang buat kita berbaik. kau ajak couple balik, aku tak nak sebab kau kan macam sial :) hahah. dorang yang bagitahu semua pasal kau time kau couple dengan aku. bagitahu pasal SASHA kau, FARAH AZWANIE kau, DARLING kau semua betina betina kau. hahaha. sebab tu aku sayang dorang lebih daripada kau. bila aku tanya kau, kau tak mengaku semua. Rahman kan hebat dalam bab cover cover line ni. hahahah. then kita gaduhhhhhh balik sampai 06 June baru kita baik balik. dah jadi bestfriend ex boyfriend sendiri. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH. aku yang mula dulu mintak maaf ni semua. haha. then dah cakap membebel bebel semua, aku mintak number kau sebab kau kan kaya sangat sampai berbelas belas phone hilang. at last! dapat jugak number kau. malam tu otp dengan kau sampai awek kau bengang asyik waiting! waiting! waiting! hahahah. bila aku nak letak, kau kata "chilling in the building lah". apaks you. tiruu ayat aku jugak haa. hahahah. then kau cerita pasal dulu dulu kita. awwwww! aku suka plus tiba tiba emo. marah kau , tak bagi kau cerita balik. hahhahha. pastu kau cakap "bila dengar suara kau, aku teringat doh dulu dulu" FUCK punya Ady. hahahahah *padahal dah senyum lebar dah :') hahahah penat nak taip cerita pasal kita kan bie? hahaha tiba tiba bie

Anne Kamarulzaman :'(

2010-06-09T00:08:00.000-07:00

Malam tadi text Kak Anne,

Me : kak anne, now we're just friend. no relation as kakak and adik. Jana tak pernah terasa sampai macam ni. Thanks kakak.

Kak Anne : thank you. I'll leave you okay, have fun with you new sis. bye.

Me : thanks too. tak serabut fikir pasal Jana en? buat semak nak fikir. have fun too with your new lil' sis. I'm proud of you :)

Kak Anne : kakak sayang Jana tapi kakak banyak masalah. kakak kena masuk asrama. semua orang tinggalkan kakak. Jana pun. thanks. bye.

Me : Jana pun sayang kakak. tapi tak boleh terima cara kakak layan Jana. Jana cepat terasa bila orang yang Jana sayang lupa Jana semua.

Kak Anne : I'm sorry.

Me : tak apa lah kak. open your new life without Jana.

Kak Anne : kakak still nak Jana jadi adik kakak.

Me : boleh. tapi jangan lah buat tak layan kat Jana. dulu kakak ada janji. buang macam tu je. sekarang ni kakak buat lagi.

Kak Anne : sorry sayang.

then kak Anne macam sedih bila aku cakap macam tu. aku tak ada niat nak sakitkan hati dia. tapi aku tak boleh tengok cara dia layan aku. I'm sorry kakak :'(

I'm new here

2010-06-08T22:53:00.000-07:00

I'M NEW HERE. SO PLEASE ENJOY READING MY BLOG :)